Welp, in just 6 days I’ll be the mommy of a 2 year old. These past 23 months have been life changing. Motherhood is not easy, not in the slightest bit. In this short amount of time, I’ve shed many tears (cried quite literally over spilled milk). I’ve gotten into heated discussions with Jan over who’s contributing more as a parent. I’ve felt mommy guilt for working… PART TIME AT THAT! Oh and don’t even get me started on the restless nights spent listening to Kai’s continuous whimpers… I mean, melodic hymns in the midnight hours. Tunes that I still get to enjoy to this day.
As a new mom, I’ve felt emotions that I’ve never felt. I’ve experienced new aches and pains in unfamiliar places. I’ve had to deal with high stress situations while trying to put on a happy face for my son, all the while wanting to burst into tears. But in trying times, in times of discomfort, and in times of weariness, I’ve always found a way to remind myself that all of this is normal and no different than from what other parents experience. I may not have known exactly what I was getting myself into when I was TTC, but I was fully aware that there would be new challenges ahead. Knowing this fact, I still said “I want to be a mom.” So I did.
I can honestly say that waking up everyday to my son’s smiling face is worth every sacrifice, every maternal scar on my body, and every successful and failed attempt at parenting. He’s worth it all. Without hesitation, I’d do this all over again, I’d choose him each and every time. Being a mom is such a huge role to play, and I feel extremely blessed that God trusts me to take on the part.
I’ve learned that what may feel like a struggle, is simply life. We all have highs and lows. It’s just a matter of finding our breakthrough. With that, I’ve also learned that you can’t go it alone. It truly takes a village. Though I may have fewer hours of sleep, and I walk around in leggings way more than I should, I’m so happy being a mom. Kai is the greatest blessing I’ve ever received.
xoxo
Share your story, tips, and words of encouragement with me and other moms/mom’s to be out there. How was your first year or two of parenthood?